Comments on: Do you remember your first crush? http://mediakik.com/blog/do-you-remember-your-first-crush/ Kontent is always Key Thu, 13 Aug 2009 14:42:48 -0500 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.4 hourly 1 By: jin http://mediakik.com/blog/do-you-remember-your-first-crush/comment-page-1/#comment-80 jin Thu, 13 Aug 2009 14:42:48 +0000 http://mediakik.com/blog/?p=191#comment-80 i will never forget my first crush: the butterflies, the dry-mouth stutters when he approached me - the instantaneous loss of composure - rendering me a mute who could only nod and smile. the mornings wondering "when will i see him today?", "i hope he's here", "why did i wear this?" "why can't i _______ (be prettier / be funnier / be brave enough to make him notice me). it was a thoroughly exhausting endeavour, all that unease. maybe that's why i've grown into someone who's militant about being honest and facing my fears - too many crush-opportunities lost because of fear and insecurity. i will never forget my first crush: the butterflies, the dry-mouth stutters when he approached me – the instantaneous loss of composure – rendering me a mute who could only nod and smile. the mornings wondering “when will i see him today?”, “i hope he’s here”, “why did i wear this?” “why can’t i _______ (be prettier / be funnier / be brave enough to make him notice me).

it was a thoroughly exhausting endeavour, all that unease. maybe that’s why i’ve grown into someone who’s militant about being honest and facing my fears – too many crush-opportunities lost because of fear and insecurity.

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